Sunday, April 25, 2010

How to spend $34.00 and smile

It's not often today that you can get your money's worth for anything. Gas is over $3.10 a gallon, because we need to make sure oil company executives get massive bonuses for record profits; milk is almost half again as expensive, because, you know, we have to import and buy so much on the spot market. Darn those foreign cow coalitions... we pay too much for healthcare, auto insurance, home mortgages, pretty much everything.

So: Why is it that after paying $17.00 a ticket for the special Imax glasses to go with the Imax 3D movie, I feel happy? Well that's EASY! Blue stripey girls are ... wait sorry... DRAGONS are hot! (ha ha). More specifically, Blue/Black dragons that spit (Plasma balls? Lightning? Whatever..) are hot. I was more than satisfied with the Imax versions visual effect, and combined with a superbly told charming and funny story, the film is there firmly in my current Top Ten. The writing is excellent, and the actor voicing Hiccup delivers his lines with the perfect punch amd wry humor, and the right amount of frustrated teen when called for. Toothless the dragon always does a great job, though he was not given much dialogue to work with. Having Vikings with Scottish accents just goes to show how well travelled the Vikings really were, and Craig Ferguson and Gerard Butler are charmingly brash, overbearing and simplistic as required. The twin brother and sister keep their squabbles funny, every time they do it, and the kid who simply HAS to have been drawn to look like Jack Black acts like him as well.

The big surprise for me was Astrid; I was absolutely certain that Kirsten Dunst was doing the voice. That of course COULD be because Astrid looks exactly like Kirsten, and copies a number of her gestures, such as the lock of hair hanging over her right eye, the glare, and the smile. When I saw that it was America Ferrera who did the voice all I could think was "Well, that explains it, she is a great actress too!" I have to say, if you are going to see a 3D Imax film, this is the one. The flying scenes took me back to the opening night of "The Empire Strikes Back" with the little airborne speeders racing over the ice and snow. Yow! There is a good reason I think 3D is more than a fad; the visuals here are the primary one.

I also saw "Kick-Ass". Be warned; if potty mouthed 12 year old girls in pony tails are going to shock you, don't be eating or drinking when Hit Girl first shows up. The people in front of you will get really pissed. This movie was funny as hell, and about as politically correct and sensitive as a Beavis and Butthead meet South Park film would be. This film makes no excuses for the level of profanity, masturbation jokes, violence or cleavage shots; and while they don't all get used, I am reasonably certain that all the guns Neo and Trinity did not use were grabbed up by the armourer Damian Mitchell, and the props head. Rudolf Vrba did a great job on the fights; by the time Hit Girl starts, well, kicking ass, nothing she does ( a wall run and flip? ) looks remotely silly. Aside from the fact she is a homicidal maniac, she does a good job being second place in the cute department (for a 12 year old; back off folks (GR) ). As the love interest Lyndsey Fonseca (who is a respectable 24... pfftthhhbbb..) is extremely funny, and VERY pretty. Christopher Minz also has a good part, and actually ties back to "How to Train Your Dragon" as the voice of Fishlegs..

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Tears like steel rain

I lost a friend not long ago. I wasn't home when the news came; I got it 12 hours late. Not that it was news I wanted, but I feel I should somehow have known, and checked sooner. Maybe I did, and it was just that all the other mundane things got in the way of the signal. Maybe I thought the reason I woke up early was because I knew I had to be up at 8 AM, not because that was when the first call came, to the home I was not in. Maybe that's why I woke in the middle of the night; not because the dogs where I was staying jumped in bed with me, but because that was when she left, trying to say goodbye one last time.

I'm filled with a variety of emotions, swirling like a tornado, boiling like lava. They scald and whip me, or leave me in a deceptive calm, the eye of a raging storm. Pain, guilt, anger, and love; all twisting about each other, each one striving for precedence. The pain of losing one you love, one you care for, one you trust is obvious. Its natural, and part of the price you pay for loving and caring. It's the dark flip-side of the bright shiny coin of love; and that bright side is worth the risk of exposure to the dark, ten times over if not more.

The guilt is there too; no logic anchors it, no common sense sways it. Would she be alive today if I had been awake, 3000 miles distant? What if I had called again the day before, since I was doing nothing else at the time? Or if I had gone to visit on her birthday? Maybe told her I was planning on a surprise visit? Perhaps if I hadn't flipped off that driver who didn't signal? Which butterfly in China needed to live, or to die, so that the flapping of wings created a breeze of energy that swept across the globe and held her here? The heart does not know logic. It knows only the now; and right now, all it knows is loss. Like a selfish child it wants, and needs, and no pale thing like practicality will bend it from it's path. When the mind gets dragged in, guilt is the savage goad that lurks around every corner.

Anger is there too; it is never the first emotion felt. Pain is the first, but anger often follows it. In this case too, there is no logic. I am angry at the doctors who didn't do enough or did too much; at the insurance companies who were slow or stupid; at the nurses or even the kitchen staff who made small mistakes. I am angry at petty gods, stupid fates wielding shears, malicious deities and stupid karmic wheels. I am angry at myself for not being there; for not saving her; for not bringing her back; and angry at myself for being angry. And yes, I am angry with her as well. Angry with her for not staying longer, angry with her for not being continually amazing, angry with her for being human; angry with her for hurting me and leaving me.

The occasional calm, deceptive as it is, has one bonus. In that stillness I can hear her voice again. Like that one faint wisp of Hope, still there in Pandora's box, I hear it whisper to me. In those moments I can hear the love, remember the laughter, the moments holding her when that was what she needed; I can feel her hand in mine, or her fingers running through my hair or across my face. Her other friends, her husband and her son, they are there too, sharing the hurt, and the love, and we lean against each other there in the all too short lull; Patrick, Michael, Christina, Randy, Mykael, Stephanie and the rest, like fragile reeds on the verge of a monsoon.

The pain is gone for that brief moment, and I know that eventually, I will turn my inner eye and the storm will have passed; only the peace and love will remain. But in the meantime the tears fall, and strike like steel rain.

Elayne Rachel Fong Chi Sai Yac Lan 3/20/1962 4/11/2010